Dinner Time!

Since before Seth was born in 2003 we made a choose that I would be a stay at home mom. We have had to make a lot of sacrifices in the last 8 years but I would not change it for the world. Now that both of my kids are in school (3rd and 1st grade) the question keeps getting asked by other people if I am going to go back to work now. That answer is NO. My kids still get out of school at 3:10 M,T,TH,F and 1:10 on wednesdays. Also they have days off not to mention holidays.

So I am trying hard to do what I can to help cut out spending where I can. Today while on www.daveramsey.com I ran across a cool website called "E-meals mealtimemakeover.com". After surfing the site a bit I fell in love. The concept is great. You pay $1.25 a day ($15 every three months) to have someone else plan your dinners for you. It comes complete with a shopping list and meals only repeat every 4 to 5 months. You can pick from all different diet needs i.e. Gluten free, low fat, low carb.

Below I have posted a link to the website. Please use this link if you decide to sign-up.

The weather outside and inside...

The weather today in lovely Utah is 45* right now but we have a cold front moving through. After the front wonders in the temp. will drop around 20* to the low 20's with 1 to 3 inches of snow. It is cloudy with just slight moments of sun. The wind is blowing lightly and adds just a little chill to the air. To say it is gloomy outside would be an understatement.

I find my spirit feeling much like the weather outside. I keep finding myself searching for meaning and yet I keep coming up with more questions then answers. This sucks. One moment the sun shines in my soul and I feel warm and uplifted. Then the cold wind sweeps in and bring the gloominess with it and I find myself searching again.

I am ready for a day of clarity. I am ready to feel like I have found my place and am where God wants me. I am ready for CONTENTMENT.

What's it all about?

So I just got done listening to a sermon podcast that Francis Chan preached at Cornerstone Church in Simi Valley, CA. The sermon was titled "Making Sense of Your Life". The basic point of the sermon was: When you accepted Christ as your own did you make the life change or are you still sitting on the sidelines. Francis talked about a couple of mission trips he has been on and talked about how he went on them not because he is strong but because he is weak. He talked about going to India and China where christians in both places deal with persecution everyday. He talked about story after story of lives being lost or torn apart for the sake of Christ.

What struck me was how the people in China laughed when Francis told them that in the USA we don't get persecuted and how we have buildings that we have church in. He said they laughed so hard and asked how we got what we do in America out of what the Bible says a church is. You know I have to agree. How DID we get the way we "do" church from what we read in the Bible? Sometimes I have to wonder if we here in America were being persecuted would we take Jesus Christ more seriously? Or if we stopped hiding in our buildings and really reached out to the lost and sick would the world take Jesus more seriously? We get so caught up in all the wrong thing that we forget what God calls us to do and be. We are called to BE the church (ie. the HANDS and FEET of Christ) not to PLAY church. I think in so many ways we have missed the mark on this one.

The sad thing is tons of people are going to hell everyday because we care more about who's at our church, the color of the carpet, the music, or being comfortable then we do about saving the lost.

It's been a while...

It has been two and a half years since I posted last. I went back to read that post and realized how much has changed. I posted on my son's first day of kindergarten and now he is in 2nd grade and my daughter is in kindergarten. Flashing back over the last two and a half years I see to much to post about but will say there has been much pain, crying, laughter, and joy.

Today my husband and I are celebrating our nine year wedding anniversary. What a crazy nine years it has been. Sometimes I would love to meet up with the people that told us they give us 6 months and see what they think now. Silly people! :)

Ok so my goal on this is like I said in past posts to be real. Along with that idea some posts might be set to private but most will not. I will also try to post often. I'm not sure if anyone will read this but hey all in all it will be good for me to blog right?

Seth's first day of Kindergarden!

I'm sure that I am one of a million moms or dads that have and will blog about there child's first day of school so here I go. This morning was Seth first day of school. Seth and I started off the morning by helping the kindergardeners off the bus and to there classes. The poor little things looked so scared and not sure of what to do. Seth was a big help talking to the kids and what not. Then I took Seth to his class. I got one picture of him at his classroom door and then he was off to find his seat that he picked out on friday. His teacher Ms. Evans had coloring sheets and crayons out for the kids to color. Once Seth saw that he was off. I couldn't even get him to say good bye. Finally he looked up and said "bye mom. I love you!" and then he was off to color again. 
He has been so excited to start school. I have been as well. His little mind works so fast that I can't wait to see even after just today what he learns. It is still crazy to think my first born is in school now! It doesn't seem like it was that long ago he was learning to walk or talk and now he is going to learn to read and write and alot of other things. 
Well I am off to get something done before Brent gets back from his date with Naomi. Bless her little heart I think she is having a harder time with Seth being gone then I am. More about that later. :)



Trisha

Post From Xanga

I am posting this to "save" a post from my xanga account before I close it.

So I have not been blogging for sometime now not because I don't like to but because I have had so many crazy feelings going on inside. I was afraid to let people know how I was feeling because I am a pastors wife and most the people I talk to like to see the Pastor and his wife "have it all together" well I am proud to say that I do not have it all together. I have had to come to the understanding that God is really truly the only PERFECT person to roam this great big world I call home (only for now, Thank God). I went to a church planters conference 2 weeks ago and attend the "wives" tract. I have been dealing with alot of unknown feeling and was hoping this would help me to not feel alone in my roll. Well that I got out of is was that I indeed am not alone but still felt like I was the only wife to ever feel like maybe they were going crazy and unsure of the calling to be a pastors wife. I got to hear many wives speak but felt almost like they were robots. They shared nothing of the feeling they felt I mean truly felt. I didn't want stuff candy coated. Brent and I have learned that the people of our generation just want you to up front and tell them like it is. Don't fluff me just tell me. I felt like that at the conference. Stop dancing around the feelings and show some. On the way home from the conference I was talking to Brent and I told him that I am so sick of people not telling you how it really is. I mean think about giving birth, I have 2 kids and when I was pregnant with my first of course I knew it was going to hurt but when I would talk to people about it they would always say "oh Hun it is the best thing ever you just feel so whole". Now I did love giving birth to my two kids but you can bet you bottom dollar that I was asking for the epi when I was able to have it. Another thing I had to find out on my own with having kids is that about 6 to 8 weeks after giving birth your hair starts to fall out! I would have loved to have known that one! So I guess what I am saying is from now on I am going to once again go against the flow and just be real. Church planting is wonderful and I don't think I would ever not do it but watch out because as a woman and the wife of a church planter you will have feelings about people, things, and just life that you have never had before. You will love and hate the job all in the same day. Trust me. I think woman who say they have never wanted to throw in the towel also have a major problem with lying. Trisha

New

Hey I am new to this blog spot and I am going to try and keep it up. I am moving from Xanga because I am trying to create a space that I can grow and vent without some reader. I have spent the last 2 years building a strong relationship with some individuals only to feel very burnt this many years later. Everything I did from online groups to blogging and now when I need to grow and vent I am finding I can't.  So here I am! I will try not to over load on here but I guess this blog is just to let you know that writing on this end is coming from a heart that is hurting and a mind that just does not understand.