Monday, February 7, 2011

The weather outside and inside...

The weather today in lovely Utah is 45* right now but we have a cold front moving through. After the front wonders in the temp. will drop around 20* to the low 20's with 1 to 3 inches of snow. It is cloudy with just slight moments of sun. The wind is blowing lightly and adds just a little chill to the air. To say it is gloomy outside would be an understatement.

I find my spirit feeling much like the weather outside. I keep finding myself searching for meaning and yet I keep coming up with more questions then answers. This sucks. One moment the sun shines in my soul and I feel warm and uplifted. Then the cold wind sweeps in and bring the gloominess with it and I find myself searching again.

I am ready for a day of clarity. I am ready to feel like I have found my place and am where God wants me. I am ready for CONTENTMENT.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

What's it all about?

So I just got done listening to a sermon podcast that Francis Chan preached at Cornerstone Church in Simi Valley, CA. The sermon was titled "Making Sense of Your Life". The basic point of the sermon was: When you accepted Christ as your own did you make the life change or are you still sitting on the sidelines. Francis talked about a couple of mission trips he has been on and talked about how he went on them not because he is strong but because he is weak. He talked about going to India and China where christians in both places deal with persecution everyday. He talked about story after story of lives being lost or torn apart for the sake of Christ.

What struck me was how the people in China laughed when Francis told them that in the USA we don't get persecuted and how we have buildings that we have church in. He said they laughed so hard and asked how we got what we do in America out of what the Bible says a church is. You know I have to agree. How DID we get the way we "do" church from what we read in the Bible? Sometimes I have to wonder if we here in America were being persecuted would we take Jesus Christ more seriously? Or if we stopped hiding in our buildings and really reached out to the lost and sick would the world take Jesus more seriously? We get so caught up in all the wrong thing that we forget what God calls us to do and be. We are called to BE the church (ie. the HANDS and FEET of Christ) not to PLAY church. I think in so many ways we have missed the mark on this one.

The sad thing is tons of people are going to hell everyday because we care more about who's at our church, the color of the carpet, the music, or being comfortable then we do about saving the lost.


Thursday, February 3, 2011

It's been a while...

It has been two and a half years since I posted last. I went back to read that post and realized how much has changed. I posted on my son's first day of kindergarten and now he is in 2nd grade and my daughter is in kindergarten. Flashing back over the last two and a half years I see to much to post about but will say there has been much pain, crying, laughter, and joy.

Today my husband and I are celebrating our nine year wedding anniversary. What a crazy nine years it has been. Sometimes I would love to meet up with the people that told us they give us 6 months and see what they think now. Silly people! :)

Ok so my goal on this is like I said in past posts to be real. Along with that idea some posts might be set to private but most will not. I will also try to post often. I'm not sure if anyone will read this but hey all in all it will be good for me to blog right?